The title of this post is basically my life. The sleeping part really only takes up about 5 hours each night. Consequently, I'm extremely tired during the day. I have such a difficult time focusing on my work. Must . . . get . . . sleep.
Why do I deprive myself of such a glorious part of life? I've said it about 20 times, and I'll say it again: I want to get married. There. I said it. To the World Wide Web.
I decided that if I don't get married, it won't be for not trying. And trying includes driving to Atlanta at least 4 times a week -- that's an hour of driving each way. What do I do in Atlanta? I hang out with other young, single, LDS church-going people.
Well, last night I asked some people why guys (and I guess it really applies to girls, too) don't date very much. (I think there's a consensus about this: LDS boys typically don't date; they "hang out.") One guy said that guys are too busy. I immediately disagreed. Yeah, he's got a point. Sort of. I understand that people are not always ready to date/be engaged/get married/etc. I think I came across as "willfully misunderstanding." But I had
a point, and although I didn't say it well, I think it's a pretty good one.
That is, people are
busy. But if you want something badly enough, you make
time. Yeah, you forego sleep. I drive 2 hours just to go to an activity! Talk about not having a lot of time. I haven't cleaned my room in a month, I haven't had time to watch TV, I haven't had time to bake anything (which I really miss), and I haven't, as I said before, had much sleep. Sure, I didn't always do this. There was a time when I just didn't want to put forth the effort. And I know other people feel that same way.
So my point is that people always say they're busy. We're always going to be "busy." I don't know if anyone ever has the time or the money to get married. But it's a sacrifice you make. Once you decide that's what you want, I guess.
I think I just answered my own question. Why don't guys ask girls on dates more often, and vice versa? I guess they're just not ready to "commit" or something like that. Or maybe they just haven't found a right person. There are all sorts of reasons, I suppose. But I'm not buying the "too busy" excuse. Not buying it at all. I'd rather someone say, "Well, my last boyfriend cheated on me, and I'm still a little unnerved by it." Yeah, it's private, but it's honest. And people are okay with saying much worse things . . .
At least I know there's one person who agrees with me: Blake. Check out his post
on (sort of) the same thing. Trust me when I say it's worth reading!
Thing I'm thankful for: The principle of repentance.