Sometime in the Beginning of February . . .

I kind of lost interest in blogging. What a far cry from my blogging heydays. Should I tell you why? Instead of writing paragraphs about it, I'm just going to make a list:

• Spent some late hours at the office.
• Began babysitting for extra money.
• Started reading (and have since quit) 20 pages of the Book of Mormon per day.
• Have had a lot of very expensive dental work done. (In 3 days, I'll have a gold tooth . . . I'm gettin' a crown, ATL style.)
  
• Been very socially active -- I hosted 2 parties in a month and a half. I'm hardly ever home.
• Applied for -- and did not get accepted into -- the Master's program in Human-Computer Interaction at GA Tech. :(

All in all -- not a terrible 2 months. I have a lot to be grateful for. I also have a lot to work on. Lately, though, I have just felt like I have nothing worthwhile to say. I feel like my brain is just . . . blank. I used to think and think and think about all sorts of things -- literature, philosophy, day-to-day musings, what have you. I still think, I guess . . . but I feel like it's not worth sharing. Or that maybe nobody wants to read about what I have to say. I'm just kind of in a funk. I feel like my brain is like those two eggs in a frying pan, but without the drugs.

This feeling became really pronounced with that last list item. I think I handled the news well at first, but now that it's been a few weeks, I think, "What am I going to do now?" "What am I doing with my life?" One good thing is that I had been wondering how I was going to pay for school -- what with all of this major restorative dental care -- and now I don't have to pay for it . . . I do feel rejected, though. I'm not used to academic failure . . .

This is not just taking a toll on my blogging. I feel like my human-to-human interactions are not as good, either. I've been pretty quiet lately. Oh, sometimes I'm talkative, and I laugh and have fun, but I feel like most of it's empty conversation -- on my part, that is. Maybe I need to do more reading. I used to read all the time. And maybe I need to get more sleep.

What do you suggest? Do you have any helpful hints?


Thing I'm thankful for: violin solos.